Yesterday morning I heard someone crying, and looked into my bedroom and saw Jay laying in my bed, sobbing his heart out. I jumped in with him and we had a good cry together, and next minute Kobe joins us. Kobe saw us crying and then said 'me miss my Daddy soooo much' and also started crying.
Harri heard what was going on and jumped into bed with us and was trying to make me feel better by rubbing my arm, saying 'it's okay Mummy, it's okay'. It only took Harri a couple of minutes and then he was crying too.
We all just climbed under the doona, cried and hugged each other and then Jay cracked us up laughing when he said 'We're a wreck!!'.
Thank heavens for family xxx Especially lovely little fellas !
ReplyDeleteI'm feelin ya! You guys will do great. Early days suck! Early months...aww who am I kidding the first year sucks! If you are upright at any part of the day then you are successful! Same goes for the boys.
ReplyDeleteLoving you long and strong from afar
Tricia
Thanks goodness you have those sweet boys and they have you to help heal each others hearts xx
ReplyDeleteI am sending hugs and prayers! Glad you were able to have some emotional release together. God bless you!
ReplyDeleteSending you our thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine how hard this must be for you all.
ReplyDeleteEveryday I think of you and the boys. My heart aches for you.... Wish I could take some of the pain away.
ReplyDeleteLove Tammy
Yes I can imagine that now the hard times are beginning. It's wonderful though that you have each other and that someone somehow always seems to say the right thing.Your boys are amazing Lisa and together you will pull through. It's wonderful that you can see their special qualities shining through. Thinking of you all the time.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could say something that would help....please know that you are being thought of everyday xxxx
ReplyDeleteI'm crying too. Good to be able to smile a bit thru the tears. What a blessing have all those arms entangled about you.
ReplyDeletexo
Holly
but a gorgeous wreck x
ReplyDeleteI would imagine it gets harder as things start to settle down once again. I've never met Aaron but I still can't believe he's gone either, it's just seems strange.. Hugs to all of you. At least Harri and Kobe was still able to put in a little smile in the photo xx
ReplyDeleteI have to admit that I have a sob every time that I read your blog. You are doing such a great job. I feel for you so much, and then selfishly think of my own 3 boys aged 7, 10 & 12 and appreciate how lucky we are. You will all help each other. I am no grief counselor, but sometimes you just have to wallow before you can pick yourself up to carry on.
ReplyDeleteSusan (Melbourne)
Oh man! So many tears :(
ReplyDeleteSending armfuls of love x
me crying to every time i´m here and i DID NOT EVEN KNOW him! thats so unfair! :O)))
ReplyDeletesending you LOVE and HOPE and I am so glad, for you, that you have your boys, and they have you!
Claudi
Words fail me...I can't imagine what you are going though! you have amazing boys...may ypu find comfort together <3
ReplyDeleteOnce again, letting you know my thoughts are with you and your boys. Your boys are very lucky to have you. Having a teary over this entry <3
ReplyDeleteI always have always thought afternoon church was a bad idea! Too much time to reflect, and see who's missing. Weekends must be so hard now. I had a talk to my neighbour over the fence today and she had heard your story from facebook. She started tearing up when she put the connection together. Seeing you guys upset, breaks my heart, but I am grateful that you openly share your thought and feelings to us. It is good therapy to be able to grieve together. Maddi has drawn a Wiggles picture for Kobe and wanted the back to say "whenever you are sad because you miss your Dad, I will draw you more pictures." Looks like it's time to send Kobe those pictures. Love you all lots and lots. You guys are amazing!
ReplyDeleteYour all amazing!!!
ReplyDeleteLove Jay's sense of humour! Always ready to crack a funny no matter what the situation :)
ReplyDeleteLove and hugs to you all, this sucks.
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more tears from me. Jay sounds like he has a great sense of humour. xxx
ReplyDeletesuch a precious moment to share with your boys Lisa....... my heart aches for you all...there will be more beautifully special(even though painful) "missing Aaron" moments for you and the boys to share i am sure..thank you for sharing this one with us...we cannot imagine in our wildest dreams how hard these moments are for you all..just know we love you
ReplyDeleteLisa you are a truely amazing woman. I have been reading your blog since I herd about your story through another blogger. I have read your post every night before I go to sleep and it makes me want to be a better person. Your courage, strength and love is something I have never seen or herd before. You are an inspiration.
ReplyDeleteNo words...only tears. I'm so glad you have such tender boys. xxx
ReplyDeleteWe all need a good cry every once in a while. Today was your day.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could take away your pain. Thinking of you every day.
ReplyDeleteJeanette USA
Also thinking of you EVERYDay...I read your blog every morning (I am in USA) and I pray for you and your lovely boys....please know you are being lifted up to our Heavenly Father who though I have NO idea why he has allowed this to happen, I do know he IS your comforter and your provider and your safe place...
ReplyDeleteBlessings to you and your 3 precious Sons.xx
That picture at the end of your post (a gut wrencher) is so great. I would never have thought to take a picture, but it makes it alllllll so much more "real" to all of us blog stalkers out here. I, too, think of your family every day and wish there was something that I personally could do to make you all feel a bit better. Your blog is a great therapy of sorts for you and the pictures are positive things for your boys to look at (we like 'em, too!). Hang in there, Lisa!
ReplyDeleteyou're so strong - I found your blog by accident and have absolutely fallen in love with your family, your courage, and your unbelievable will to go on; despite all the things life is throwing your way. carry on, be strong, and this too .. shall pass.
ReplyDeleteDanielle - craft play love.com
It breaks my heart. I am so sorry. I am glad you have each other to hug, cry, and understand together. You are in my prayers. Hugs to you all.
ReplyDeleteCouldn't visit the blog and not comment! You are loved! Thank you for sharing your "honesty". Hopefully on some small level you feel the great love and support being poured out to you by many, many like myself who are thousands and thousands of miles away and yet want you to know "YOU ARE LOVED!"
ReplyDeleteThis is a journey! Thank you for sharing! One day at a time; one minute at a time; one memory at a time! You can do this!
Huge (hugs), kids always sum it up in a nutshell. What beautiful wrecks you all are!
ReplyDeleteLisa, I don't know you or your family. I live thousands of miles away in North Carolina, USA. You have been nothing short of a complete strength and inspiration to me the past several weeks. My heart breaks for you and your beautiful family! Through your tragedy I have seen courage and grace that I didn't think existed. You've been an amazing example to me. You are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope that you have nothing but happy, peaceful days ahead. Stay strong!
ReplyDeletelots of hugs and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI've been following your blog for the last 3 weeks. I think of you often and pray that you and your sweet boys will find some comfort in such a heartbreaking time! I'm sorry you are going through this. You All must be the noble and great ones before this life. Much love and prayers from a sad mommy in Utah, USA. Xoxo
ReplyDeleteOh I'm crying with you.... such tender tender moments...
ReplyDeleteSo much for you all to adjust to, I am sorry.
ReplyDeleteGlad you have each other to comfort and cry with, shows how close you and loving you are all towards each other.
Hugs to you all.
I have been watching your blog for a while...
ReplyDeleteI am in constant awe of how strong you all are in the mist of what you all are going through -you are all so strong.
I feel here on earth Aaron did lots of good and wished he was around longer (much) to offer more good.
I dont know you at all but I cry often when I read your post. From me to you all - lots of healing vibes are being sent your way daily.
My heart breaks for you all. But I cannot help but say, the photo you posted was breathtakingly beautiful. Because it showed honesty. It was raw. There was pain. But there was so much love. And the love will see you through! You are prayed for.
ReplyDeleteI am an ocean away, but my heart hugs you in spirit. I appreciate the courage and strength in you. I recently have come across your blog and I pray for you constantly. I can only imagine the angels that surround you and your boys! May you be lifted and strengthened in this time of sorrow and change. Isaiah 40:31 "But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful mother you are and such a steady, constant source of pure love for them. You are so good. You are better than you know.
Oh Lisa :( I feel for you so much and I am constantly thinking of you and praying this gets easier for you in time. It is just not fair at all, but please hold onto the thought that Aaron and Noah will be together watching over you, Jalen, Harri and Kobe and guiding you all until it comes your time to join them. Sending you all my love and hugs, wishing I could do more for you. You are the most amazing person, such an inspiration and the best mother to your boys. Lots of love and strength xoxo
ReplyDelete:( Sometimes our hearts are eternally bound to eachother because of shared sorrow and grief. I can't think of a family who are closer. xxxx
ReplyDeleteYou make a beautiful wreck x
ReplyDeleteGone- flitted away...
ReplyDeleteTaken the stars from the night,
and the sun from the day.
Gone, and a cloud in my heart.
-Alfred Tennyson
I found this quote & thought of you...
I am often thinking of you & your boys.
God bless all of you.
wishing somehow we could take away your sadness and pain....
ReplyDeletemay our heavenly father's love lift you up and bring comfort to your souls!
what a wonderful husband, daddy, friend, teacher, man.
This is one of the most beautiful pictures I've ever seen. What a beautiful family. I must admit, when I saw it, I couldn't "see" it without seeing Noah on one side and Aaron on the other. You are separated, but you're still a complete family! Your boys are amazing and you are too. You and Aaron are the kind of people I would love to be friends with. I will look you two up in the next life. :)
ReplyDeleteI am crying with y'all. My heart goes out to you and those wonderful boys. I wish there were magical words I could say to make you feel better. You all are thought about and prayed for. And you will be with Aaron and Noah again one day.
ReplyDeleteGod bless y'all, Kelley
Texas, USA
Such beautiful boys. My heart breaks to read your post, I can't imagine your pain. I'm glad you have one another.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a beautiful family. Hope you can feel the strength I'm sending you with this message.
ReplyDeleteI pray for you often. Keep being strong, God is with you.
ReplyDeleteYour boys will carry you. As a mom of four boys, I feel and share how blessed you are...
ReplyDeleteStay brave *hugs*
Chantal