Dates

I'm not sure if it's just me who does it, but I always wait until early January to buy my calendar for the year, so I don't have to pay full price.   I finally got one this week and pulled down the old calendar to transfer everyone's birthdays over to the new one.

As I started to do it I kept noticing all the appointments and references to Noah and it of course made me sad, but then I was also happy for Noah at the same time, that he no longer needed to go to 'physio' or ' Dr B' or 'bisphosphonate therapy' or 'seating clinic' anymore or any of the other hundreds of appointments he had every year.  


Kobe was the calendar boy for September on the Smile photo calendar this year, as my photo was featured for that month.  As I turned to that month I realised it was also the last month that we had Noah at home with us, as he was flown to ICU on the 1st October.  That last week at home with him we had two appointments - some training for Di and Alison to become accredited to suction and feed him so we could have respite on the weekends and taking Noah with me to talk to the med students at the hospital. It's crazy to think that three days later he was in ICU on a vent.

I had a few of these calendars to keep as souvenirs because my photo was in it, and I haven't written on them, but I just couldn't throw this old one out because it has so much about Noah on it.  It's now in his box with all his other special things. I'm sure my calendar won't be half as full this year.