Sunday, 29 January 2012

Is it real?

I know it really happened, but how can it be real?


This is how I imagine us right now - together with you right by my side helping me to have the strength to get through the hours, days, weeks, months and years ahead.

I know you couldn't stay honey as much as I wish you could.  I know there must be something much bigger that you are doing right now.  I kept thinking how torn you must've been -  to want to stay for me and the boys, but wanting and needing to go.

I'm okay.  We even played cards with the boys tonight and had lots of laughs.  I'm sure you saw Harri and his crazy trash talking, making us all laugh.  It seems strange to do 'normal' things but I feel like I need to for the boys. I'm sure you also saw Kobe showing off all day as he danced for us.  At bedtime he said 'Daddy died, Noah died, Daddy died too. He's not here'. 

I'm so overwhelmed with love and support at the moment and you know how independent and strong I always am.  It's hard to accept things from people, but I know you would be wanting me to just accept things because I need all the help I can get right now, and be grateful.

And I am. So, so, so grateful.

Please give Noah a hug from me, and tell him I love and miss him so much.

39 comments:

  1. Dear Lisa,

    I know I barely know you, but I am so thinking of you and your family. Much, much love, Francesca xxxxxx

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  2. I don't know you personally, but I grieve with you. Prayers.

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  3. Im sharing tears with you- we are here for you- praying for you and grieving with you. Marnie S.

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  4. I can just see Aaron saying, 'just say yes babe'. He is so so proud of you. I can just see him and Noah fighting, "i'm prouder, no I am, no I am".

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  5. Prayers to you and your family for courage and strength during this difficult days ahead. Shirley (Becky's aunt)

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  6. I am crying.. They are tears of sadness and tears of joy. To only know you on line has been the greatest friendship I could ever have. Heaven has a Great Husband, Father and Friend. You are a Brave Woman and Mother and Aaron will help you through this through your family and friends. We Love you Lisa.

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  7. Oh his obituary is beautiful Lisa... I'm thinking of you with so much love. I agree with Simone, I know Aaron and Noah are so incredibly proud of you.

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  8. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I don't know you personally but I feel like I'm part of your family. My heart is heavy right along with you.

    Love,
    A

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  9. You have such a gift with words. How do you speak about your soul mate in just a few paragraphs? You did it so eloquently and BEAUTIFUL! I love you friend! You are STRONG! xxx

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  10. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. We just follow your blog--we don't "know" you in real life, but our family has been made better because of your influence.

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  11. Dear Lisa. I live 10,000 miles away from you in New York. I found your story through Naomi at 7 Cherubs. I am Australian. Also of your same faith. Despite these common threads, I also realize you've never heard my name, don't know me at all. And yet we are linked.

    We are linked through our beautiful online friendships. We are linked as mothers. As women who love a good man for eternity. And as sisters - global sisters, spiritual sisters. Your sisters, both strangers and dear close ones, are holding you in our hearts. We are praying for strength and courage for you. And we are adding our tears to yours as we mourn and grieve with you.

    Our grief will move quickly because Aaron is not our story. But he is your story. And nothing, nothing, can take him away.

    All the love in the world from far away and close by,
    Chrysula xoxo

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  12. My prayers and thoughts are continually with you and your family at this time.

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  13. My heart dropped when I read the Obituary and funeral notice in the paper - it doesn't seem possible.

    I was listening to a song earlier - "Borrowed Angels" by Kristin Chenoweth. One of the lines is "they can't stay because they're heaven sent" ... in fact the whole song reminds me of both Aaron and Noah.

    Prayers for you always.

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  14. Lisa, you don't know me but I have now read both your stories of loss in tears. I wish/pray for you that you find all the strength and comfort you need in these difficult days. I wish/pray for your boys that they find the same strength and comfort as they come to terms with such loss at so young an age. I wish/pray that your family unit become so much stronger and you open your heart to accept the love and support of family, friends and those you don't even know through the blogosphere and may you feel it's warm cocooning embrace. God bless your family.

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  15. My heart is absolutely breaking for you and the boys. You are all in my thoughts and prayers x

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  16. Your strength is overwhelming. For you to be able to put your feelings into such beautiful words and open your heart to allow us all in, is simply, brave. You are a beautiful mother full of love and strength. What a beautiful human being. Sending all my love, Belinda

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  17. I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine, and when I do my heart just breaks. I pray that you hear Gods sweet whispers to you showing each quiet step forward. Much love from a total stranger also called Lisa. Xxx

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  18. Hi Lisa,
    You truly are an amazing woman. I know of you and your family but have met none of you personally. Your husband helped a family member by simply being himself (thankyou).
    Lisa, strong women like you are often very independent! Remember it's ok to put your strength away for some minutes/hours in some days. It's ok to look to others for strength at times. I say this because often people forget that even the strong need to borrow the strength of others sometimes and need to be carried for a little while.
    Much love to you and yours and those that carry you for a little while xxxxx

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  19. Lisa, I don't know you and only just came by your blog via Naomi (Seven Cherubs). I am lost for words at the loss you have had to endure in such a short time and am equally at a loss for words at your amazing strength and positivity.

    Even though I don't know you I have cried for you and I hold you and your boys in my prayers. You are a beautiful and strong example for your boys.

    Peggy xo

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  20. thinking of you lisa xx love the christies

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  21. The Imperfect Mum29 January 2012 at 13:55

    What a beautiful, strong, enlightened Woman you are. Your boys are looking down very proud... Lots of love to you! Kristy Vallely (The Imperfect Mum) XXXX

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  22. Although I haven't met you, you are in my prayers daily. I am a friend of Lisa Woodward. Prayers from Provo, ut.

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  23. Hello Lisa,
    I don't know you but came across the terrible news through the 7 Cherubs facebook page... when I began to read, I realised that we live in the same suburb, and could have even crossed paths... small world.
    I am so very sad for all your pain, but so amazed by your strength. You have lots of people who love you, that is clear!
    I feel so strange typing this and don't want to intrude, but just wanted to add some extra warm thoughts your way.

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  24. You wrote so beautifully. I am so priveliged to know you & Aaron and your sweet boys. I am praying for you and love you very much xxxxx

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  25. I don't know you personally either. But am touched deeply by your courage and strength at this terrible time. Praying for you to have continued peace in this tough time and praying that you and your boys are drawn closer to our Lord and God in this time. x

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  26. I don't know you personally either but my heart aches for you and your family. You are all in my thoughts and prayers.

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  28. Lisa, all of my prayers have been for you and your beautiful family. I can't imagine the heartbreak you are feeling right now but hope that you are able to continue to draw strength from your family, dear friends near and far and your faith in Christ xxx

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  29. Hi Lisa, have followed your blog only a short time found you through your photography. My heart is so sad for you and your family, will keep you in my prayers.

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  30. Lisa, you have been in my thoughts since I heard the terrible news. You have so much support around you and I know we hardly know each other, but if there is anything at all that I can do, please don't hesitate to ask. You are such a strong, brave woman - sending some hugs to you and your beautiful family.
    Lori McCormack xo

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  31. Lisa, Jalen, Harrison and Kobe, I am so sorry for your loss, of your son/brother Noah and now your daddy/husband Aaron. I dont know you personally but I felt compelled to write something to you. My heart goes out to you at this difficult time. I pray you all find the strength you need to get through this profound loss. May the memories of your loved ones never fade and be a constant reminder of all that was beautiful and bring you comfort. May your hearts find peace in the love of your family and friends at this time. I cannot begin to imagine what you are going through at the moment, but understand it must be so hard. I feel so sad, and feel for you all. Rest in Peace and may both your boys fly with the angels and shine so brightly at night with the stars. Just by reading your blog, what a beautiful family you are. You have already taught me about valuing each day and to never take anything for granted, I wish you all the best and my deepest sympathies to you all.

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  32. Lisa, you are in my thoughts and prayers, hold tight to your family and vision and feel the love you shared,in your heart, forever and always. Maggie T

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  33. I just came across your blog and my heart is breaking for you. I want you to know that I am praying for you, that you well have peace and the strength you need to get through the next hours, days, weeks and months. Cx

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  34. Lisa, you are amazing. You are STRONG! God bless your family. Love from around the world.
    XO

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  35. Dear beautiful brave girl,

    Ive just spent a few hours reading a small part of your life. A small drop in your ocean of emotions, love, honour, strength and above all devotion to your family. Your blog is a testament of how amazing you are. Take small steps...ask for help beautiful girl...be ok to not be strong...be ok to lean...be ok to sit and stare into the beyond...be ok to think of what could have been...and importantly be ok to laugh again and smile again. Honour your family to do those things. You have given us all out here in the great big beautiful world, a gift. That gift is knowing in part how amazing you really are. May your God be your strength and your solace.

    Colleen

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  36. I have a special girl myself (5 years old) and my husband has been my rock through everything. I can only imagine how much heartbreak you are going through having lost your special boy and your dear husband so close together. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your boys. God bless xoxo

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  37. What a beautiful thing the thought of Aaron and Noah reuniting. Crying and feeling sad, praying that you and your boys are okay.

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