This is how I imagine us right now - together with you right by my side helping me to have the strength to get through the hours, days, weeks, months and years ahead.
I'm okay. We even played cards with the boys tonight and had lots of laughs. I'm sure you saw Harri and his crazy trash talking, making us all laugh. It seems strange to do 'normal' things but I feel like I need to for the boys. I'm sure you also saw Kobe showing off all day as he danced for us. At bedtime he said 'Daddy died, Noah died, Daddy died too. He's not here'.
I'm so overwhelmed with love and support at the moment and you know how independent and strong I always am. It's hard to accept things from people, but I know you would be wanting me to just accept things because I need all the help I can get right now, and be grateful.
And I am. So, so, so grateful.
Please give Noah a hug from me, and tell him I love and miss him so much.