Alison had been encouraging me for a little while to get some family photos taken. I love being behind the camera, but hate having my own photo taken, especially right now when I know I'm not looking my best because of everything that has happened.
After talking to some other friends about it, they agreed with Alison and suggested it may be a nice thing to do, because hopefully in the future we can look back on these photos and remember how we feel right at this moment, and see that things have changed (hopefully for the better).
We really wanted a part of Noah and Aaron to be with us in the photos somehow, so we used Aaron's t-shirt quilt that Toni had made us, and a beautiful monkey that our friends Heidi and Junior had sent us after Noah passed away. It's a 'tubie' monkey and we love it so much as it reminds us of Noah not only because it's a monkey, but because it has a feeding button on it's tummy and a neb mask and also a football attached to it. We knew straight away that it was what we needed to use in the photos to have a piece of Noah with us.
Here are just a couple of the photos that Alison took that day, but I will post some more later on.
It was hard to get 'family' photos taken without Aaron and Noah . The boys became very emotional (and cranky) as the shoot went on and Jay even commented that it was making him sad because there were only four of us.
Jay took our anniversary photos the last two years, and he said it reminded him of those days and he became really sad. Thanks Alison for taking them for us. I hope in time we can look back and see how far we've come together from where we are right now.