I find it much easier to deal with things at the moment to just go and do something different, rather than sitting around feeling sorry for myself. It can be so easy to sit and dwell on what has happened, and although I'm always sad it's easier when we get away from home. After Aaron passed away all I wanted to do was be home, but now I'm finding it's the opposite. I want to be anywhere but here.
Because Noah passed away in Hobart I always feel like I want to go back there, even though we have sad memories from there. Aaron joked that he never wanted to go back to Hobart again, but we had gone back together after Noah passed away. In lots of ways it makes me feel closer to Noah to be where he passed away, so the boys and I decided that for Noah's 'angelversary' we wanted to spend the weekend in Hobart.
I have friends in Hobart who I would've loved to have caught up with, but we decided that it was just going to be a family weekend and we would try to have as much fun together as possible. We stayed for three nights and booked into a really lovely hotel which had a nice view and an indoor heated pool.
We had a great view of the city from our hotel room
The boys had been wanting to see the movie 'Hotel Transylvannia' since they saw an ad for it, so we went to watch it in 3D. It was a great movie and was very funny.
I usually hate paying for these sort of games, but couldn't resist playing a few with the boys. Harri has the concentrating tongue going on like my whole family does.
I actually think it was very therapeutic swimming every day for all of us. It was so nice seeing the boys have so much fun together. They kept saying that they wished they had pool at home.
We were so happy to meet Brodie up at the hospital. Brodie was one of the beautiful nurses who was with us when Noah passed away. I often think about her and the other lovely nurse who was with us and wonder what it must've been like for them as they started their shift, knowing that they were going to be there with a family as they said goodbye to their son. We were so touched by the way they treated Noah that day. They were so kind and thoughtful to us and everyone who came to say goodbye.
It was so lovely to have Brodie come to Aaron's funeral and meant so much to me that she and the doctor that was with us when Noah passed away, would make the effort to come especially when they don't really know us that well.
Brodie met us outside the NPICU at the hospital and then took us inside to 'Noah's room'.
first ever Instagram photo I ever put up was of Aaron and the boys leaving the hospital, the day after Noah passed away. I remembered that while we were there, so I made sure I got a photo of the boys walking out of the same entrance together. They cracked me up laughing as Harri kept posing and would smile when he came out. I laughed and told him it was okay not to pose, so they decided to do a 'take two' and every time they would come back out they would crack up laughing. I love this photo of them as it shows that even thought we are so sad every day, that we still have moments when we laugh so much that we almost wet ourselves!