I have no idea where the last twelve months went. It's so hard to believe that twelve months ago today, we said goodbye to Noah. I wonder if the past year would've gone so fast if Aaron hadn't passed away as well. I always wonder how different my grief would be if I was 'only' grieving for Noah right now, but I guess I will never know.
A couple of weeks ago a good friend sent me a text telling me about a new song by Pink called 'Beam Me Up' and said that I would probably like it. I had been thinking about making Noah a video for his 'angelversary' and had been looking for weeks for a song to use. When I listened to this song I knew straight away that it was the one to use.
Just a couple of days after I chose the song I got emails from two different people who we don't know, saying that they heard the song and it made them think of us, and thought I may also enjoy it. They both sent me links to listen to the song and I smiled as I knew that I had already chosen it as the song for this video.
Harri made me smile when he said 'I like that you are disabled' because he really did. We talk now about how Noah can run and isn't disabled anymore, but it upsets Harri because he wants to remember Noah the way he was.
Even though we knew since he was nine weeks old that he would pass away young, it's still hard to believe that he really isn't here anymore. We miss him every single day.