Thursday, 26 July 2012

6 Months

It's so ridiculous to me that I have two blog posts titled '6 Months' and they are both about it being six months since two of the people I love more than anything in the world dying.

It's unbelievable that Aaron has been gone for six months. It has absolutely flown by, but at the same time the days are so long.

My lovely friend Simone texted last week saying she wanted to have Kobe for the day today, and I told her that would be great as it would be the six month mark for Aaron.  He loves going to her house and hanging with Jonty and they went to visit the cemetery together.  It made me smile to see the Hawthorn coloured balloons that Simone had left at the cemetery earlier this morning.   We also took some balloons up to release this afternoon.

 We met up with my friend Justine and the kids at the cemetery as they hadn't seen Aaron or Noah's graves yet.  She told her son Felix (who is three) that they were going to visit Kobe's Daddy's grave and he supposedly looked confused and said 'gravy!?' and had no idea what it meant. I was talking to Jus about how crazy it is that Kobe has had to learn so much about death and graves and funerals already, and how he doesn't think twice about where we are visiting, and where Aaron and Noah's bodies are. 

I miss my best friend so much.  I still can't believe he is gone and no matter what I am doing or where I am, all I can think about is 'Aaron died'.  I think about Noah too, but it's such a different feeling to when I think about Aaron dying. I still can't get my head around that he is gone. It feels like he is just on a really long holiday. 

Oh how I wish he was just on a holiday and would walk back in the front door soon. 


  1. so sad the loss u have had u r a stronger person than me i don't know what in the world i would do ...Mr king was loved so much by his students and i often here the kids saying rember when ! ur closing photo of u and mr king brought tears to my eyes may him and noah rest in peace xx !

  2. It's still just as unbelievable to me as it was in January. Love love you

  3. Oh Lisa, I can't imagine how that must feel. I guess when you lose your husband to divorce (as I did) rather than death, it is an entirely different feeling ..... although you have some of the same feelings and at first I too felt like and hoped he was going to come back but then he didn't. I often think of all the people that read your blog hugging you and the courage that they gain from reading your blog to face the things that they are going through. Don't stop writing your blog, because your honesty and the reality of your words blesses the lives of others I'm sure. It allows people to feel those emotions which help us to become better people ..... things like compassion & empathy. I love the balloon idea .... I always think of balloons as 'happy things'. Thanks Lisa for your lovely words.

  4. No words Lee, sorry, just tears.
    I wish I could l could wave a magic wand and reverse time, and you could have your best friend and eternal companion return to you and the boys.
    I am so sad for you, but very proud of how you have continued on, being a great parent to your boys, and being a fine example to us as a family.
    I love you.

  5. Thinking of you with so much love and admiration...

  6. Praying for you and your family Lisa. I can't believe it has been 5 months since I lost my son - I know what you mean. The thought is ALWAYS THERE in my head - "Jonathan is dead and not coming back". It is not fair that you should have to lose your son and your husband in the span of 4 months. It is not fair that I have to listen to friends talk about their kids and their intact families while my family has been ripped apart at the seams. I just want him back! I wish Aaron could come back to you. I'm so very sorry - I will keep praying for you. Do you believe in the afterlife? If you do - I have some amazing pictures to share with you :)


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