6 Months

It's so ridiculous to me that I have two blog posts titled '6 Months' and they are both about it being six months since two of the people I love more than anything in the world dying.

It's unbelievable that Aaron has been gone for six months. It has absolutely flown by, but at the same time the days are so long.

My lovely friend Simone texted last week saying she wanted to have Kobe for the day today, and I told her that would be great as it would be the six month mark for Aaron.  He loves going to her house and hanging with Jonty and they went to visit the cemetery together.  It made me smile to see the Hawthorn coloured balloons that Simone had left at the cemetery earlier this morning.   We also took some balloons up to release this afternoon.

 We met up with my friend Justine and the kids at the cemetery as they hadn't seen Aaron or Noah's graves yet.  She told her son Felix (who is three) that they were going to visit Kobe's Daddy's grave and he supposedly looked confused and said 'gravy!?' and had no idea what it meant. I was talking to Jus about how crazy it is that Kobe has had to learn so much about death and graves and funerals already, and how he doesn't think twice about where we are visiting, and where Aaron and Noah's bodies are. 

I miss my best friend so much.  I still can't believe he is gone and no matter what I am doing or where I am, all I can think about is 'Aaron died'.  I think about Noah too, but it's such a different feeling to when I think about Aaron dying. I still can't get my head around that he is gone. It feels like he is just on a really long holiday. 

Oh how I wish he was just on a holiday and would walk back in the front door soon.