Saturday, 24 November 2012


Yesterday it would've been our 17th wedding anniversary.  I wasn't expecting it to be such a hard day, but so far it's been one of the hardest days in the past 12 months. I thought that the 12 month anniversary since Noah passed away would be harder, but as soon as I woke up I felt teary and knew it was going to be an emotional day.

I had to work which was probably a good thing as it kept my mind off it as much as possible.  After school I picked the boys up and we went straight to the cemetery.  It was so lovely to see some flowers left at Aaron and Noah's graves by the beautiful Leanne.  Leanne made the lovely prints with the sayings on it on the side of my blog.  I thought that 'Lee' was someone else, and only just realised today via Instagram that 'Lee' was 'Leeane' :) Thanks for visiting Leanne - it means a lot.

I talked to the boys about how it was going to be our wedding anniversary and how I wanted to do something fun like we always do on days that are extra hard.   We talked about going out for tea and decided that before that we would go swimming as the weather was beautiful and it was a 'family fun night' at the Aquatic Centre which meant they had the inflatables out and the waterslide was free for a few hours.
We then went out for tea which the boys were so excited about. Kobe cracked me up as he asked 'are we in Hobart!?' during tea because we only usually go out somewhere special for tea when we are away from home.
In town last night were lots of activities for the lighting of the Christmas tree in the mall.  We thought it would be fun to go and check it out.  We did a bit of shopping and stopped for a photo with this very funny alpaca (or is it a llama?!).   There were so many people around and I couldn't stop thinking about the same night last year when Aaron and I took Jay out on a date together.   They were singing Christmas carols and all of a sudden I just felt really emotional and didn't want to be there. The poor boys wanted to hang around and watch the lighting of the Christmas tree, but I couldn't leave fast enough and was glad to get home away from all the Christmas festivities. 

I didn't expect our anniversary to be one of the hardest days yet, but it makes sense because it was 'our day'. It wasn't a day that is shared by other people like birthdays and Christmas.  When we were married we were great friends, but as time went on we literally became best friends.  Our life was far from perfect but our relationship became so much stronger as time went on.  We had to learn to rely on each other so we could cope with all of Noah's needs as well as still giving our other boys time as well as trying to keep our relationship strong. 
I treasure these photos that Jay took on our anniversary in 2010 and last year.

Our anniversary last year felt a lot different because it was only about 6 weeks after Noah passed away, but I love this photo because it shows that we could still have a laugh together (I think Aaron was trying to give me a kiss or something and I didn't want to so I kept pushing him away:)

When I married Aaron I knew that he had heart problems and operations as a baby but I didn't think much of it.  If I knew then what I know now I would do it all over again. It's not at all how I wanted things to turn out but I'm so grateful that we had over 16 years on earth together, and am grateful that during that time he showed no sign of his heart troubles until he passed away. I know things could've been a lot different and he could have had a lot of years with bad health. I wish we had many more years on earth together, but I'm so glad that we were able to have four beautiful boys together, and am grateful that my three boys keep me going every day.   I know that Aaron and I will be together again one day, and that's is especially what keeps me going as I can't wait for that day.


  1. They say the firsts of anything are hard and I guess your first anniversary without Aaron is no different. Thinking of you and sending love and prayers. It is wonderful to know that you can still feel grateful despite all that has happened. What a wonderful example you are.

  2. I can't even begin to imagine how hard it would have been to be so strong throughout such an important day in your lives.
    I really hope that today was a better day and that you feel the comfort and peace from God.
    Much love
    Ellen xx

  3. I can't imagine a more perfect couple. When I think about how some people are just made for each other or complete each other or are like two halves of the one person - it is always "Lisa n Aaron". Love you heaps. xx

  4. You are such a strong person, not sure I would cope with what you have had to endure. You had the a great marriage that also endure some difficult times and issues, but managed to laugh and love regardless. I always get such strength from your posts. Stay strong and I know Aaron and Noah are watching over you and your beautiful sons.

  5. I'm sorry it was such a hated day for you sweetheart.
    You must have felt so lonely without Aaron.
    I'm glad you and Aaron were married in the temple and you have the promise of an eternal life together.
    I know that you feel of your eternal love for such a lovely man as Aaron.
    Love Mum.

  6. You have a beautiful family Lisa, and I love how you honour both Aaron and Noah and the boys here with you on these sad days by making the effort to enjoy yourselves.

  7. Love you. Beautiful post. I love that you say you'd do it all again. xoxoxo

  8. What a lovely bride you were Lisa, and Aaron pretty good looking too ;)

    I love your attitude of going out and doing something fun on the anticipated hard days. Others might be inclined to curl up in a ball. Your sons are very lucky to have you as their mom.

    Hugs to you.

  9. Hi Lisa, I know someone recommended the book "Guide Me to Eternity" to you. I have it and would be happy to send it if you would like. Sending prayers for you and your boys. ~Nancy

  10. *sigh*
    Love to you as you work through all these days without Aaron.


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