When my friend Simone reminded me that it was time again for 'NOAHvember' I wasn't sure whether or not I would continue on with what Aaron started last year on Noah's memorial page on Facebook. I'm so glad that I did though, because I have loved going through my (thousands!) of photos on my computer to find a new photo to post every day.
All of the photos make me smile when I see his gorgeous face, but they also make me sad as I see the changes in him as he got older and more tired. I love looking at the photos from around 2006/2007 as he was really well and happy then.
I have so many beautiful videos of Noah and this is definitely one of my favourites that I shared during NOAHvember. Jay used to love it when he could make him giggle when he was much younger.
I miss him so much and when I look at his photos I just want to reach through the screen and touch his soft face, and run my fingers through his hair and give him a big rub on the legs to make him smile. It feels like he has been gone for so long now and the memories of the daily routine is slowly fading. I wish so much I was busy making up meds and feeds, doing physio, massaging, showering, toileting and dressing him, and sitting on the couch with him telling him heavy he was getting.
More than that I wish I was telling Aaron off for carrying him from the lounge room to our bedroom, because I was worried he was going to hurt his back. I used to ask him every night if he wanted to do a two person lift, but Aaron always insisted that he wanted to do it on his own.
I just miss them both so much.
These are the photos that I shared on Noah's memorial page on Facebook during NOAHvember.
I'm sad that NOAHvember is over, so be prepared for more photos and videos of Noah. I have so many that we took before I started blogging and would love to keep on my blog, so will be posting more in the future.