One thing I never took for granted when Aaron was alive, was how lucky we were to have so much time together on school holidays. A lot of people joke about how many holidays teachers have and how people often teach just for the holidays (which actually isn't true for the majority of teachers) but for us it was just a bonus of the job that Aaron (and I) loved doing.
We always loved school holidays and tried to do as much as we could together depending on Noah and his health. It always meant we did something close to home as going away on big holidays interstate was impossible unless we left Noah behind, which we did not want to do.
Now I really dread school holidays. I hate being home with the boys for so long on our own, as it just reminds me of how different things are. Before Aaron and I would take turns sleeping in, while the other one got up early with Kobe and would get Noah's meds and feeds ready for the day. We would have lazy mornings around the house and would then try to go and do something most afternoons.
Now the house is just so quiet and empty and doesn't feel like home anymore. I don't like being here much and find it easier to just get away which is what we decided to do for some of these school holidays.
My brother Christian has lived in Sydney for years, and hopefully will be moving back to Tassie at the end of the year, so we thought we'd make the most of being able to stay with him in Sydney and just spent a week with him.
Half the fun of being in Sydney for the boys is catching the trains, so we caught the train into the city a couple of times. Other times we had been in Sydney we had Chrish showing us the ropes, so I was pleasantly surprised that it was so easy to work out where we were going and just jump on and off trains.
Harri who is usually happy has found it really hard since being home and has cried a lot saying how much he misses Aaron. Unfortunately I guess we can't get away from it forever though.