When our 'old' house was going to go on the market, I knew it would be photographed for the internet and newspaper, so I decided to take down all our personal family photos. I just felt a bit funny about having our family photos up for strangers to see. I know that sounds weird since I have a blog, but I just didn't feel comfortable having strangers walk through our house, being able to actually see who we were by looking at our photos.
I left up other pictures, but the house just didn't feel the same. When I took them all down it felt awful. Jay and I kept commenting about how horrible the house felt, as we had no reminders of Aaron and Noah anywhere. It made us just feel really sad. We had so many in our hallway and all over the house, so once I took
them all down I decided it wasn't worth it to put them all back up
again, as we would be having open homes and inspections for a while.
I hoped that it wouldn't take long to sell the house, because I missed having our family photos up so much. I only left up Aaron's Oasis concert poster and his signed Hawthorn team poster.
I sent a link to my family and a few friends when our house went up on the internet, and everyone kept commenting that they'd never seen it so clean before! My house is usually 'lived in' for sure, so it was nice to have it so tidy just for an hour or two :)
Oh how I miss my big kitchen with lots of storage! I also miss having a kitchen bench where the boys can sit up on the stools and chat to me while I'm cooking or while they're eating their breakfast.
I especially miss our bathroom with the big spa bath. It was perfect for Noah and made our life so much easier as we could hoist him into the bath and wheel him straight into the shower on his shower chair. When Noah wasn't hogging it, I also loved to jump in.
Thank you again S Group for taking such lovely photos of our 'old' house which was once so special to us.
We are really enjoying our new house, but miss having everything brand new like at our old house. I definitely don't miss the
feelings that I had when I was there in the last year or so though. It feels so good to enjoy going and being home again. My heart is still empty and broken, but it doesn't feel as heavy now.
I don't have to walk into the bathroom anymore and imagine and remember Noah having a shower in his shower chair.
I don't have to walk into the lounge room and look at the spot where Noah would lie on his mattress on the floor every afternoon.
I don't have to go to bed every night in our old bedroom every night, where I couldn't sleep for hours and would lay awake wishing I could hear Aaron and Noah's snoring. I still wish I could hear them in my bedroom snoring, but it's so different now that I'm sleeping in a new bedroom - one that they haven't been in before. I now fall asleep and sleep most of the night.
I don't have to look at the marks on the wall where Noah's wheelchair had scraped it.
I love having reminders of Aaron and Noah, but not when I feel smothered by them because the reminders of them are too overwhelming when they are in your face all day, every day. I'm glad that our 'old' house is now someone else's new house, and know that Aaron and Noah are still with us no matter where we go.