Last New Years Eve Aaron and I took the boys to see the early fireworks in town. Even though we were terribly sad as it was just a few months after Noah passed away, we had a lovely night and decided that it was something we wanted to continue doing every NYE with the boys.
I was grateful to have my Mum and Chrish and the Woodwards and Triffitts join us for a fun NYE as I was kind of dreading it and wasn't keen on going to the fireworks on my own. We spent some time up at the Gorge first having tea, swimming (or at least the kids and one crazy adult did) and playing frisbee.
At dusk we headed to the riverbank to get ready for the fireworks. It was nice to run into other friends from church who were also there.
Usually in the New Year Aaron and I would reflect on things that we would want to change. We wouldn't really make New Years resolutions because I think we should be continually having goals and changing things in our lives to improve ourselves, but we would often talk about things we wanted to change as the New Year rolls around.
Without a doubt my goals for the New Year is to always lose weight and get fitter and Aaron's was often the same, but Jay and I have been talking a lot about what Aaron wanted to work on last year. He decided he was going to try to be more patient and not so crabby (yes it's true - Aaron wasn't perfect! ;) We have been having a joke about how patient he was in January and how it must've been too hard for him to stick with it which is why he had to go.
It's obviously been a shocker of a year in 2012 and I'm hoping that 2013 brings lots of healing, some joy and happy moments that the boys and I will create together. I feel sad that it's a New Year and the first year that Aaron isn't alive in, and the second one without Noah, but I'm grateful to put 2012 behind me. I'm so grateful for everyone's love and support. It means so much to me to know that so many people are continuing to read my blog to see how we are doing. Your comments, messages and emails give me so much strength as I know that we aren't alone in our grief and sadness.