The Change

My beautiful garden has been letting me know that the seasons are changing.  I love summer, but also love autumn as it brings relief from the hot days (yes Tassie does actually get some now and then) and it's not as cold as winter so I don't dread the change.  

Not only are the seasons changing, but my life has also just gone through a big change.

This year has obviously been a very hard and stressful one.   I've heard that there are three things that are the most stressful things in life - losing a loved one through death, going through a divorce and moving house.  I've now been through two of those things in the last 18 months...or really three because I lost two loved ones. 

On Saturday we moved out of our house and into our new home which we bought. It's been a very stressful five months or so, as it took me months to make the decision to sell our house.  Deciding to sell was one of the hardest things ever, but then having to go through the process of buying and selling my house on my own was also very stressful.   

There were also huge blessings along the way which I plan on blogging about, as I can see that it was all meant to be and confirmed to me that I was making the right decision.

When I woke up on Saturday morning I saw the first of the autumn leaves on my lawn at our old house.  It was so symbolic and I knew that the change would be a good one, even though it was so hard.

I didn't tell my family, friends or even the boys that I was thinking of selling for months as I wanted to make the decision on my own. I literally thought and prayed about it for months and didn't want to be stressed or confused about what to do, because of the opinions of other people.  I know I have made the right decision for the boys and I, and know we will be happy in our new home, or as happy as you can be with the situation that we are in.  

Saturday was a day full of mixed emotions. We are happy to be in our new home, but so sad because of the reason why we had to move.  It's not something at all that I thought would happen and planned on staying in our home for many more years, but things just got harder and harder as the past year went on and I wanted my home to be a place I wanted to be again. 

I will share more about our move when I'm not so tired and have done more unpacking.  We have been so blessed by so many amazing people, and without them our lives would be a lot different right now. I feel like I can finally breath again and am not so overwhelmed with feelings of sadness and grief like I was in our old house.