I love my boys, but being a single Mum is the hardest job ever. It's especially hard during school holidays. When we are together day and night for weeks on end, time can go very slowly. Being a single Mum reminds me of the days when you have newborns and toddlers at home, and you feel like you're going a little bit crazy being at home all day long, and you can't wait for your husband to walk in the door, so you have an adult to talk to and they can give you a break. It's just that now there is no respite. You just have to deal with it the best that you can, and that often means just trying not to shut off too much as I listen to talk about Pokemon, computer games and football all day long, and keeping as busy as I can.
The first two weeks or so or holidays were really hard. I was grateful for some sleep ins, but I just didn't know how we were going to cope with six long weeks to fill in. The boys are actually quite happy to sit at home all day, and are very good at entertaining themselves with playing on the computer and Wii. Some days were spent like that, but I hate that they would choose that all day long, especially when the weather is beautiful and knew they couldn't do that all summer.
new place we hadn't been before.
last time they were there with Aaron and my brother Chrish. It was nice to hear all their stories about Aaron, and I was surprised that Kobe could even remember a lot from that day, even though it was almost two years ago to the day.
Mum and Dad's new house for a week, and that week definitely went the fastest.
By the third week I started to love school holidays. All the boys slept in past nine every morning and even Milly learned to not wake up so early, and would sleep in until the first boy woke up. She has loved having us home all day, every day, and won't know what's hit her when school goes back. We loved finding new places to take her. Having a dog definitely made the holidays a lot more fun.
tube park we had heard lots about. It was so much fun, and the boys keep asking to go back. The first time Kobe went down he freaked out. I think he held his breath the whole 100 m down, and at the end I cracked up laughing and said 'Kobe was freaking!' and he yelled 'no I wasn't!' and then tried to act tough every time he went down. This was his third time down, so he was being a lot braver than the first couple of turns. He cracks me up when I asked him if he was scared and he says 'no, not at all' and then when the guy asks if he is ready he says 'no' and yells 'I said NO!' as he's being pushed down the slide :)
I will have a lot to learn, but I can't wait for it. It will be so exciting to be a part of helping them learn English. I know that they will mostly learn from being around the children in their classes, but I'm excited to see them develop.
Kobe's back up plan of me working at Maccas doesn't have to happen now.
I start back at work tomorrow and the boys start later in the week, so last night we decided to go out to mourn and also celebrate the end of school holidays, and to celebrate my new job. During tea I couldn't help but think about how close we have become over the past two years.