Just after we started to decorate it we all talked about how Aaron loved putting the Christmas carols on while we were doing it, so Jay ran and got some carols. He made me smile when he found all the old classics that Aaron used to play including some old Hi-5 carols and Mariah Carey's 'All I Want for Christmas'. I think it was a bit too much for him though because after a little while, Jay came over to me in tears and just wanted a hug.
It really made me realise that Jay is now the man of the house when he lifted up Kobe to put the star on the top. That was always Aaron's job as he would lift either of the boys up to do it.
When Harri found this decoration he just came over to me and showed it to me, and didn't say a word. I gave him a hug and told him that some good friends of ours gave it to us just after we were married. He didn't say anything but just went and put it on the tree.
Last year we didn't really do much leading up to Christmas. It was all just too hard and I just wanted to get through the month. I still feel the same this year, but I'm not feeling so anxious about it. It's still very hard seeing everyone get so excited about Christmas, but I feel like I can cope with doing a few more things this year.
Last week my family all came in for tea and we had all the kids act out the nativity scene. It was hilarious and we rummaged through the costume box to find enough costumes so that each kid could wear something. It made us laugh that Kelsea who was supposed to be a sheep was wearing a rabbit suit, Kobe who was a shepherd was wearing a cowboy jacket, Lachie who was the donkey was wearing a real kangaroo skin, Harri who was Joseph was wearing a police shirt and Jalen who was a wise man was wearing a very small Chinese hat!
Last weekend we went along to an activity at church which was 'A Night In Bethlehem'. It was a great night and we had fun dressing up. Kobe kept telling me that the t-shirt I bought for him was too big, so I told him that in those days the men wore things that looked like dresses. He thought it was hilarious and kept saying to Jay and Harri all night 'did you know that the men wear dresses!?'.