Even though it's been five years since Noah and Aaron passed away, I still don't look forward to Christmas. It's still hard to have to go Christmas shopping on my own and to have to make the Christmas season a happy time for the boys, but I don't dread it like I used to though which is a nice feeling. There were lovely decorations around town this year.
When Aaron and Noah were alive we would always go to the Carols by Candlelight. It was hard to go with Noah because he was not feeling well and we would end up leaving early, and it was also hard to go because of his wheelchair. We would have to try to make him comfortable all night (by getting him out of his chair and lying him on the ground or holding him all night) and we would also have to take along his suction machine. But we loved going every year as a family and it was one of our Christmas traditions.
We haven't been now for six or seven years, because it was just too hard to go without them but this year I woke up on the morning of the carols, thinking that it may be nice to go again. I didn't think much more about it until my cousin Tim sent me a text asking me if we were going. I told him I had been thinking about it and said I would if they were going.
I was happy to hear that they were and my cousin Sam also sent me a text to say they were going along, so we met up with them as well. I think the last time everyone had been was also the last year we had been. It was nice to go again and to just have some laughs with good friends.squad' all night, which I was happy for him to do. It's nice that he has such lovely friends to hang out with. When I told the boys that we were going to the Carols by Candlelight Kobe asked me what it was, as he was only little the last time we went. He thought it sounded very exciting and loved the whole thing.
Aaron's birthday we were up late so it was a good night to go and look at Christmas lights.
since the boys were little, and the boys still look forward to it. The weather suddenly got very hot a couple of days before Christmas, and we were too hot to want to eat early, so we decided to go swimming at 6.30 pm instead. We met up with Tim and Helene and lots of other friends had the same idea. It was fun to all be there at the same time.
Mother of the Year! lol!) and told the boys they couldn't get up until 6am. At 5:50 am Harri couldn't sleep any longer and came into my room, so we woke the other boys up. When Kobe saw that Santa had been to all three boys he said 'we've all been on the good list!' and Harri cracked us up as he said 'it's a Christmas miracle!'.
Harri is SO much like Aaron in many ways and was excited to get lots of sport related presents (all of which he chose).Melissa and Wes who were visiting from the USA one more time, before they left Tasmania. Harri absolutely loved Wes and Kobe said 'Wes is cool!' as they loved talking sport with him. Harri is keen to play the PlayStation with him online once they get home.
The weather on Christmas Day was so hot. It was the warmest Christmas I could remember in many many years. We headed out to Mum's in the afternoon and I had to stop to take photos of the beautiful poppies on the way.
We met up with my brother Eden and sister in law Steph at the beach mid afternoon and walked out to the island as the tide was out. The water was so warm!
For tea we went to Eden and Steph's and had salads, ham and prawns and yummy desserts. We were very sad to get a text from my sister in law Becky to say that their car was playing up and they would have to turn around and go home. It meant we didn't get to see my brother Jared and his family for Christmas and we missed them a lot. My brother Christian was also home in Sydney for Christmas, and my sister Nicki and her husband Alex now live in Illinois so we had a very quiet Christmas with so many people away.
After tea the kids had fun playing outside, and we then played some new games that we got for Christmas which was a lot of fun.
This year was a lot easier than it has been over the past five years, but I still kind of wish I could just hide away for the whole Christmas season. I'm not sure if it will ever really feel the same or if I'll look forward to it.
Thanks Alison for taking our Christmas photo again this year.