I absolutely love my job which is lucky as I am now working full time for the first time since before the boys were born. We've had a lot of new arrivals at school so I was asked if I would like to go full time. I agreed because I love my job, and I'm grateful for the work and money especially as it's our only income. I'm hoping that going full time is going to be nothing but positive, and it doesn't affect my mental health too much as I did love my day off to get housework done and have some 'me time'.
Since Aaron's death I've found that the busier I am the more organised I've become, and I'll just have to be even more organised now. I do often think about the days when I was at home full time, going to the gym every day with my friends and having so much time to do housework, while waiting for Aaron and the boys to get home from work.
I miss those days terribly but I also can't believe that I used to have so much time to get things done and now I realise how much time I 'wasted'. But I'm glad that I was able to stay home for so long and could be home while the boys were really young.
It was so nice to have a couple of weeks off together and not have to worry about school and work. The best thing about holidays are that my boys sleep in and I don't have to jump out of bed early to get lunches ready and get everyone off to school. I love the lazy mornings and knowing that we don't have to be anywhere unless we want to.
At the beginning of the holidays we had a lovely surprise visit from my brother Eden and his wife Steph and their kids. We live close to the boy's school so we went over for a play. Harri always loves playing basketball with Eden so it was nice for him to have some boy time with him. If Aaron was alive I know that he would love the ages of the boys right now as Jay and Harri both love things that he used to, like playing 'horse' like Harri does with Eden.
Eden and Steph's kids are so cute and crack me up with the funny things they say.
Before the holidays Kobe reminded me that during other school holidays I would take the boys out on a date each. He asked me if we could do it again during the last holidays and said he wanted to go first. How could I say no to this cute face!? He got to choose what he wanted to do and he decided on Sushi for lunch and then we went to see 'Pete's Dragon' at the movies.
my cousin Tim and his wife Helene and their kids.
the last flood in Launceston and the kids had a great time playing in all the streams that were created.
My good friend Pip is also an awesome hairdresser and it was nice to catch up with her and also have haircuts during the holidays. I usually cut the boy's hair, but they would much prefer Pip to do it :)
Afterwards we went to the 50s Diner in Deloraine for a special treat.
Jay caught up with 'squad' during the holidays and I was happy to be the squad taxi. I actually love that he wants to spend so much time with them, as there was a time when he didn't want to get out at all. It's great that he's so happy after going through such a hard time after Noah and Aaron passed away. He loves taking photos with the girls and it's fun to see all the things that they come up with.We spent a couple of nights out at my Mum's when the AFL grand final was on. We hadn't seen her puppy Josie for ages and couldn't believe how much she had grown. Milly and Josie were so excited to be together and were just wrestling and playing the whole time.
The weather wasn't great, but you can't stay or live close to the beach and not go to the beach, so we took the dogs out for a walk one morning. It was lovely to run into my cousin's Toni and Fil and also Rachael and their kids at the park.
Harri was loving the big puddles after all the rain. Boys will be boys!
I love that Jalen now loves photography as much as me.
Kobe wanted to take some photos as well, so I let him use my camera for a little while. He was so excited about these photos he took and said 'will you really put these on your blog Mum!?'.
Jay is usually my babysitter, so we made the most of having someone to look after Harri and Kobe and went on our 'date' together while we were staying at Mum's. We went to the movies to see 'Sully' and both loved it.
We joined lots of family and friends to watch the AFL grand final and it was a lot different this year as Hawthorn wasn't in the final, so we could actually enjoy the game without the stress of wondering what the result would be.
My cousin Ty hires out the local community centre to watch the final so that there's lots of room for everyone. It was fun having a shoot and kick in the courts at half time.
Grand final day was always one of Aaron's favourite days, and this year it was 5 years to the day that Noah ended up being flown to the PICU in Hobart. That was on my mind all day and as we started driving home a rainbow appeared! I wasn't surprised at all, as it happens so often now.
Harri was the lucky last one to have his 'date' with me. Going out with each of the boys on their own was actually one of my favourite things to do on the holidays.
The last thing we did before school went back was go to the Penny Royal on the Dark Ride. I have great memories as a kid of going there with Mum and Dad and wanted to see what it was like since they have done it all up again.
When we went to buy tickets the lady told us that it can be scary for little kids, and I looked at Kobe and asked him if he was worried. He said he wasn't but once we went to get in the boat, he started crying and said 'I just want to go, I'm too tired to go on the boat!' and was obviously feeling very nervous about it. Once we got into the dark section and he could see how cool it was inside he quickly cheered up. It was quite expensive to do, but we loved it and Kobe is already asking when we can go back again.East Coast for a couple of days on the anniversary of Noah's death was a nice way to finish off the holidays. The holidays seem like a distant memory now that we are back into the swing of work and school, and we are so looking forward to summer holidays already!