Two Lives, Two Boxes

It was hard enough putting all of Noah's special things into a blanket box, knowing that there were so many special memories, photos and items all put in one box.  It was hard to know that after ten years on earth, all of his special things could fit into a box.

Our bedroom changed a lot after Noah passed away and we gave away his hospital bed, and took back his other equipment. It was the first time that we had ever had a 'normal' bedroom, and the first time we'd ever had the bedroom to ourselves in ten years (until Harri decided to join us).   It wasn't a change that we liked though.

Although I still have all of Aaron's things, I just wanted to sort them out early on.   It was hard to open up the wardrobe and see all of his clothes in their usual spots - like he could just walk in the bedroom and put them on.  I have since put all of his clothes to the top of the wardrobe and went out and bought another blanket box, and put all of his extra special things into it.  Although it's bigger than Noah's it was over flowing with things as he was very sentimental and kept a lot of things, which I'm so grateful for now.  He has such beautiful cards from students, messages they have written in books, cards from the boys, photos, old records, his old teddy 'Woody' from when he was a baby and lots of sports geurnseys which I will hold onto for the boys.

Noah's box now sits at the end of my bed. 

And Aaron's box is sitting at the opposite wall with all of Noah's special teddys on the top, with the wall sticker that Makayla gave us above it.   It's crazy to think that almost forty years of someone's life is in one box.

I actually don't even look through the boxes at all as it's just too hard right now, but I'm glad that I have sorted their special things out early as I know everything inside them, the boys and I will treasure for the rest of our lives.